you settled down in the country with
poetry pouring down your chest
love me to death, love me endless. i
can hold your breath if that's what you need,
i'll be the voice that pleas
like it did two years ago
i shake like a leaf while you find relief
in bottles on stacks of shelves & books
you spell my name out in the sand, i feel you
everywhere i look. i can't say please, i don't
say sorry - i'm never sorry, i'm never pleased
i want to stay down on my knees, & let you
take my pain from me
in the knots of my hair, & the nooks of your room
i lost myself in the belly of june, & woke to
you imagined me too soon
but i'm still there - running through the forest of your skull.
i'll be laughing in the make-shift morning you create when you're
grey & old. i'm trying to find you now that i've sold
all my things,
painted the walls,
cut ties & will
you try to love this tired body of mine?
it beats still.
you told me i'd hurt like you do.
you said i'd pay for everything.
i'd say we're even, & you'd say i'm a free thing.
we were never kind people - we stared at the world with
blind eyes & tight mouths
i kept you close, because without a doubt, you
were the greatest thing to come out of this town.
you knew me when i was young, & laughed
at my spirit - it hasn't changed
can't you hear it?
i was kissed with icy breaths before i melt
ed. i met myself by the riverbed, & she told me
hell is coming. i'd chase after you forever if i saw you